Winter of Discontent (Broken Worlds, Broken Hearts)

Greetings, dear readers. I know it's been a while since I've really posted, mostly for good reasons. Some are the lack of inspiration, others are some unwanted visitors lurking in the shadows where they are not welcome. Yes, I have been quite depressed as of late, feeling alone, and isolated. The holidays only serve to magnify these feelings, my family only takes from me, and they could care less about what's really going on with me, and the few friends I have are all far away, and busy with their own lives. On top of that, my father has been laid off for a while, and has been doing absolutely nothing to remedy the situation, except ask me to help with money, and  play call of duty. I don't work because my arm is screwed up, and no one wants to hire a cripple right now, trust me, I've been trying for things I know I can get away with, but they don't want the liability, either that, or my former employer, who I'm still involved in legal battles with, is causing issues with anyone looking at me with potential.


Broken Worlds:

As some of you may know, Cataclysm as been released for the past couple weeks, which is what I've been throwing some of my free time into. I must say, I am impressed in some areas of it, and disappointed in others. The questing experience is quite enjoyable this time around, and blizzard has learned well on how to tell dynamic stories through this. The new zones are mostly stunning, and I am happy with what came of that. 


I'm still not really happy with the decisions with talent points, there isn't a lot of room for unique specing or for PvP hybrids, but this keeps some of the less knowledgeable players from being too terrible, it limits advanced players trying to be creative with it. It's something I can live with though, none the less.


PvP feels a bit more balanced now at max level than it did post patch\pre-launch, but I think they need to change up Tol Barad up a bit, even though my faction that I main on has held it pretty well, they need to make it a bit harder to defend, because if there isn't much chance for a loss or for it to change hands, it gets boring.


The new instances are more difficult, especially heroics, and I think this is a welcome change, although they kind of got lazy on heroic loot, as it is the same loot copied over, same stats and graphics, with better stats. It kind of sucks to walk around at 85 with loot from heroic deadmines looking like it belongs on a level 15...


My guild is close to being able to raid, but we have yet to do so, so I have yet to have an opinion on this as of this writing, but I may post videos of boss kills on here in the future, for those interested.

Broken Hearts:

As most of you know from my post earlier in the month, I received more of what I've come to expect out of relationships where one doesn't want to commit. Simply, I don't need more of that in my already tormented existence (If I actually exist, of course, I still might be someones cruel idea of a joke, or something the collective subconscious agrees upon, for all I know). So I had good reason to cut her out of my life. I don't need another "friend" telling me how much of a douchebag the man, or men, or whatever they picked over me is, and how wonderful I am, or was, when you are going to stay with that guy anyways. I have more than enough of those kinds of friends, I don't need anymore.

Also I don't need any more of said douchebags proving my point, and coming at me with all the rage and fury of how much they fail as humans. I'm great at reading people, so my points don't need to be proven, and I don't need the extra conflict. So please, just leave me in my own torment, I don't need you to add to it.

Anyways, I've been trying to get out there again, reactivated my profile on okcupid, with an added note that I'm looking for someone who will actually remain loyal. I haven't really tried to make contact with anyone else on there though, as most people ignore my messages because I don't look like Edward Freaking Cullen, or Jacob Black, or Johnny Depp. People are so shallow these days it sickens me.

So far, not a single bite since you know who, or that one girl who looked strangely like my sister who contacted me around the same time as the one who will not be named at this time. I've thought about spending some free time sitting around in the local Starbucks, since that's where women have been meeting men lately, especially the unloyal nameless one. Haven't been able to bring myself to it just yet, maybe on a late weekday afternoon I'll give it a shot, who knows, maybe I'll find someone who isn't so shallow, and actually is loyal. One can dream, anyway...



Michael.

Some things I'd like to share.

Hello everyone, I wanted to share a couple things with you, since I'm not really sure what to talk about at the moment. First I'd like to share with you my deviantART page http://shin-akujin.deviantart.com/ I have some old poems\songs that I have written, as well as some photography, which I need to upload more of than I have lately. Keep in mind I write these songs and poems usually when I'm sad, depressed, or something along those lines. I also have others that I have yet to put up on DA just yet, for whatever reason, I didn't feel like sharing those with the world yet.

Proto-Ebon Dawn Coat of Arms\Logo

As some of you may also know, I'm also recruiting for a guild I run on World of Warcraft http://ebondawn-ysera.guildlaunch.com/ My mains currently are Tynan and Marlenia, if any of my readers may happen to find themselves on the US Ysera server, and want to join me.

My old Xbox 360

I'm also trying to sell off some things for some extra cash, so for those of you interested in that Xbox, or anything else I might be selling, http://shop.ebay.com/shin-akujin/m.html


Yeah, kind of a lame post so far, filled with shameless promotions of things I'm trying to do, or have done before. But I'll leave you with a funny video I came across, some dating advice for everyone, brought to you by our beloved space pope!


As some of you may know, I've also been trying to win someone's heart, but I'll leave their name out of this post for their protection.

Michael

The World Has Moved On...

 Hello everyone, as some of you may know yesterday brought a lot of changes to world of warcraft, some of which I'm not all that thrilled with, such as the talent lock, which prevents advanced players from making hybrid specs, not to mention the fact that players have so few talent points to choose from. It did bring some positive changes to the UI and some of the new guild features though. I'll see how things shape up as cataclysm draws nearer though.

Taken from http://www.wow.joystiq.com/

 Anyway, I'd like to go on to point out some of the things that exist in pop culture that should really die.

Reality TV:

Seriously, hated it when they started it, still hate it to this day. TV is supposed to be a way to escape reality, not embrace it. I could care less about what this or that celebrity is having for lunch, or getting prosthetic implants for their dog so it can feel like a man again... A huge sign that American culture is heading down the toilet and fast.

Yes, she makes out with him.

 And that doesn't even cover all the retarded "game" shows that has people eating garbage for small amounts of money. I guess the average price of dignity is pretty low now a days.

This is just sad.

The Twilight Craze:

I'm not going to badmouth the book, or the writer here, but rather the insanity of some of the fans out there.
It's great that it's getting the young to start to read actual books again, but the fact that so many girls are now looking for a 100 year old pedo-pire who sparkles, and will settle for nothing less than that, unless it's a topless Native American werewolf who also has a thing for babies, not making them, mind you. Seriously, it's sad, looking for some of the personality traits is one thing, but actually wanting a real vampire who probably won't have sex with you, and the one time he does, you'll be pregnant.


We all know how it's going to go anyways.



Gangsta speak:

It's not as bad when it's part of a "song" as it's poetic licence, such as Dr.Seuss would use in his books.

What up, yo?

But in the spoken world, it's just annoying, and sounds ignorant. And sadly people actually petitioned congress to make it a recognized language, and have it taught to children in schools.


Well, this is a sad world we currently reside in, but, if more people would step up to being individuals, instead of wandering sheep, things may actually improve. So, it's up to you, dear readers, to try to make the world a better place. Remember, only you can prevent bad pop culture!

Michael

In the begining...

 Hello everyone who might one day read this. I decided to start a blog, due to both a new friend of mine's love of blogging, Morgan, and another old friend, Brittany, who recently started a blog yesterday.

 My name is Michael, I like to write, poems and songs mostly, stories too, but I am generally saving those for when I can begin my career in game design, which I will hopefully be able to start school for in the next semester. I love music, I listen mostly to different types of rock, but I like other things as well, just not rap and country, save for a rare song that actually meant something. I'm also a gamer, but you probably figured that out given the career I want to get into. I play World of Warcraft, and am trying to get a good guild going on the Ysera server for me and my friends, and of course to raid. I play console games also, I pretty much have every system in the current generation, but I do know that reality and responsibility comes first, sadly this isn't always the case with people, as I heard that a baby starved to death in south Korea because it's parents were too busy raising a virtual child.... So yeah, the world can be pretty messed up.

  I've been injured for two years from an accident at the place I used to work, details I will go into in another post, but my left shoulder just hasn't worked right since getting hurt back in '08.

Anyway, I think that is enough of an intro, so I will go into the details of a dream I had the other night. It was a zombie apocalypse dream, where my family and I had barricaded ourselves in a mobile home that somehow also had weapons, food, fresh water, and a nuclear safe bomb shelter inside.

Via Google

The Zombies didn't get close that often, as they were usually picked off with my sniper rifle, but the ones that did get closer were usually taken care of by my sibling's shotguns, after a while, we see military in bio-hazard suits surveying the area, and they radio back to their HQ to nuke the area, we pick up the transmission, and get into the bomb shelter, and get the vault door shut just in time for the explosion. A little bit after we can hear the military outside with strange rifles that had laser saws mounted on them, and they begin cutting through the door, and I think I hear them say they want anyone inside eliminated due to possibility of infection. As they nearly finish cutting through the thick doors, that is when I awaken.

 Kinda strange, but that is what my subconscious decided I needed to see that night.

Anyway, I think that this is enough for now, until I go at this again,

Michael